December 2010
88 posts
Day Four/Five
Day four is something you have to forgive someone for. I don’t really have anything for that. Thats a good thing. To make this post longer, I just went to day five :)
Something you wish to do in your life - Hands down, Travel all over the world. If it was possible, thats what I’d do. And I will. I want to see all the places I dream about and experience life. Maybe learn new languages...
Day Three.
Something I have to forgive myself for. Now, you see, I’m sure that there are different things I could say for this, but the first thing that I think of is sort of silly - yet it always haunts me when I think about it. Back in elementary school we used to dress up for Halloween. One year my brother was coming to school I think for the first time or it was his second year or so and my mom...
Day Two.
I love how I get lost in my mind/the little things. Sometimes getting lost in ones mind can bring you to a dark place. For those moments I hate how deep I can go. But for the most parts I love how I don’t even know what I’m thinking, but I get swept off into my own mind. One of the favorite things I do - Which I do every night, but some nights for longer - I stare at the sky. I always...
TTW
I sobbed. As always. Its hard to stop once you’ve started. And it just sucks when you’re the only one and everyones staring at you - Which makes it harder for you to stop……..
I just can’t help it. It makes me sad - Maybe too sad.
Day One.
I hate how I get into these mood where I don’t think anything good is going to happen for me. Well more like, things won’t be good for a while. I have it in my head that all the things I want in my life aren’t going to happen until much later, and I have to wait. Almost my whole life - as far back as I can remember, I’ve felt like all I’ve been doing is waiting.
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Considering theres about two feet of snow outside, I haven’t gone anywhere today; Which is good because now I have an excuse for not doing anything where as usually its because all my friends have lives. Most of my day I was thinking about things I want to do before I go to school and I kept thinking of New Years! UGH I can’t wait until Courtney’s partyyyyyy. Its only in four...
Two Weeks.
Exactly.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
My friend Fallon surprised me last night with this! Its her tattoo that I designed for her!!!!!!!!!!! I had NO IDEA because I forgot that I even gave it to her. I remember her asking me to make something up, but I didn’t think I actually gave her a copy. My darling Jessie also has a tattoo that I designed which RULES!!!! I’m so incredibly flattered my friends are getting things I...
I WAS in a good mood.
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Until I saw that……
-thatindieguy:
Puscifer - The Undertaker...
“She continues to create a world entirely her own.”
-thatindieguy:
The Temper Trap - Sweet...
"Oh stop, you're making me blush"
I get so flattered when random people complement me. I mean, REALLY complement me. I sorta hate being told nice things about me because I don’t want to give the impression I want to be told I’m great or something, but I love when people tell me a person said a nice thing about me. Its different when someone other than your close friends or family say something lovely. I enjoy receiving...
Boom
What the hell, what the hell!!!!! I cannot describe to you how antsy I am for this to come out! I keep forgetting that it’s coming out because there are never any commercials for it. But I’m convinced that there will be a shit ton of them after Christmas, or New Years. GAH I’m pissed that people are comparing it to Twilight………………… God...
Thoughts
How do you know “your perfect guy/girl”. I just saw this State Farm commercial and after the guy sang the little jingle to make the agent appear, his girlfriend said, “With a new boyfriend” - He did the same, and she bitched, “Oh this is what you like. I was perfect that way I was…blah blah”. This made me think about IF someone could actually wish for a...
I want to be a free runner.
Thats all.
Today I watched that new Natalie Portman movie Black Swan. It was super intense. Half of it you aren’t sure whats really happening and whats just going on in her mind. Some parts made me cringe and others were outrageous. I recommend it!!
Current thoughts -11pm
I think someone was just shot outside my house. No big deal.
I don’t know what to get people for Christmas - and I’m out of time.
I love watching Planet Earth when I can’t go to sleep.
I’m tired.
I want to buy mass amounts of fruit and gorge myself.
The earth has so many weird inhabitants.
At certain points, I find romance movies disgusting and depressing.
I have a...
Smooch Smooch
I just saw a picture of James Franco with his sweet stache. It makes me want to kiss someone with a mustache just to see what its like.
Yup.
“Tumblr makes me like people I’ll never meet.
Facebook makes me hate...”
Hmph
To be blunt. Its the worst feeling to be unhappy with yourself. This is not a pitty post. I don’t want to hear the “You’re so (insert complement here)!” I’d rather the things I don’t like about myself to just change and be done with.
Oyoyoy
Why are you like that? First you yell at me and claim that I have this idea that I think I’m obese - or that I obsess over weight because I’m active. Then you go on this whole shpiel that no one listens to about people not loving you all because of dumb facebook; CLEARLY REFERRING TO ME. Its so fucking annoying. I just want to tell you to shut the fuck up and get over it. Ugh,...
Big
Last night I was watching Ace of Cakes and they went to bake a cake for the Globe theater in England. They needed to buy ingredients and when they went to the grocery Duff made a comment on the fact the shopping carts were smaller than the ones in America. What do you think that says about America?
Some nights, I think it would be easier going to sleep if someone was here to fall asleep with me.
Things to do today:
1. Get up
2. Survive
3. Go back to bed.
“Be what you would seem to be - or if you’d like it put more simply, Never...”
What will come of that day? More than likely nothing. But I’m secretly hoping something. I know I shouldn’t but, I honestly don’t give a damn. I wonder what I’ll find. Time will only tell.
“He’s cuter than a kitten and puppy trying to climb into the same slipper!”
– YES
This is for you, yes you.
I feel like I have several people in my life that this applies to. SO LISTEN AND LISTEN GOOD!
You are wonderful. You are fun, caring, understanding and beautiful. If I can see it, then why do you doubt that no one else will? I don’t know why you have it in your head that you are inadequate. Do you know that there are plenty of times I sit and wish I was more like you in all sorts of ways?...
This.
“Look at you. You’re young. And you’re scared. Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring what other people think. Wear what you want. Sat what you want. Listening to the music you want to listen to. Play it loud as fuck and dance to it. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget that you have school the next day. Stop waiting for Friday....
“Holding a grudge is letting someone live rent-free in your head.”
Wishing is useless.
So why is that the main thing I do?
